Coming home and Birthday Wishes!

    Two more days and my hubby will be home. After a month apart, that we were in desperate need of, he is coming home. All while he was gone, it gave us both time to think and remember why we fell in love in the first place. I think that he grew up a little bit, not having me around every day. Also, I realized that I have to let loose sometimes and not be so uptight, as friends mentioned to me on my golden birthday while they were intoxicating me. My birthday was probably the most fun that I have had in a long time.

     I went out with friends and they bought me all sorts of drinks, I don't hardly remember what and how much I had to drink, which never happens. I proved people wrong, by showing up to a softball game and then chugging a beer... not what I usually do. I think I fell into a habit of just coming home and not doing anything because that's what I have been used to for so long. I come home to the hubby on a computer all day, no dishes done, no dinner made... so I just don't do anything. I didn't think I really had many friends, but I was proven wrong myself, on my birthday. Now if only I can hold tight to my promise to myself to go out and have fun, because... hell... you're only 23 once, right? 

     I promise to myself, I will loosen up, go out and have fun with my friends, and enjoy my time without kids while I can. I will be thankful for all that I have; a loving husband, family, friends and myself. Thank you world, for showing me that life can be wonderful once again. 

     Be thankful for all that you have, because tomorrow.... just might be good!

Puppies and Babies

    I have come to the conclusion that everyone I know is either having babies or getting puppies. Or both. I have been wanting a puppy for so long and I would gladly take a puppy over a baby right now. My husband knows that I have been dying to get a puppy. When his sister and her fiance started posting things about a Chihuahua puppy they have to adopt out, I thought just maybe he would talk to them... Of course not. Here it is almost a week after they have posted things... he would be perfect. Small dog, more than likely our landlords would okay him... but nope. He has asked nothing. Sometimes I just get so irked, but whatever...
      Thank you life, for what I have, because tomorrow could be good.

Leave behind today, because tomorrow could be good...

     It is a beautiful day outside. I should be outside enjoying it. Instead, here I am sitting at my husbands computer. I do not know what to do anymore. I feel like I have given everything I can. Used up all my reserves. Nothing more to give. I can not help someone, before I can help myself. Sure, I fill my life with goodies, but that is all they are. Goodies. Things I should be enjoying, but instead... they fill a void that a certain someone leaves in my life. I have some friends too, but I need my family too. I have been strong until now, because I have been talking to my family more often than not. All it has done is make me realize how much I miss them.
     I never realized how close I was to my sister's until now. I've been talking to my brother, which has also made me miss him. Even though before now, I can't remember the last time we talked. So I guess I will be thankful for what I have in my life, because tomorrow... just could be good.